Titty Gate

This waiting period is annoying… doc returned from his vacation and I met with him on Wednesday. I informed him he is holding up my life and could we move along here and schedule my surgery. The scheduler is out with covid and returns Monday (May 9th) so I should be able to hand Lumpy it’s eviction notice on Monday. Dr Keleman is so amazing and supportive. He’s very insistent that I be comfortable with all the decisions being made in regards to my treatment. We discussed that my carrying a baby in the future would probably not be the best idea for my health and the risk involved of going off the medication regimen would not be beneficial. So that means when I decide to have a baby, I will need a surrogate. This of course brings its own separate set of emotions and disappointments that were not in my life plan. But it is more important that I ensure longevity of my life than experience being pregnant. This is something quite devastating to me and is perhaps the hardest part of all of this. Lumpy has taken that from me and while I’m not pleased at this unfortunate turn of events, I know that everyone has their own journey and this one is mine.

Today I met with the fertility doctor and we discussed how the egg retrieval process will go and what happens to my little oocytes. I got wanded and it looks like I have somewhere between 13-15 eggies hanging out downstairs. Doc is hopeful that the fertility drugs will pump up 20 oocytes to retrieve and as my desire is only 1 little rugrat in the future, we should have enough to work with. I cannot start any of that until after Lumpy is evicted, so now we wait some more.

I’ve had so many people reach out to me or appear in my life this week, some I know well and some have been little gifts from the universe, that have given me some helpful information about their own journey and offered support and guidance. I am so very grateful to have had all of these people cross paths with me and have a unique understanding of the fact that everyone’s journey is very different even if it is similar. Thank you all for your kind words, your offers of support, and your willingness to share. It has truly felt like a gift and I have felt so much love since I’ve shared this with the world. I cannot begin to describe what it means to know so many are rooting for me. After many weeks of up and down emotions (more are to come I’m sure), this week, I have felt very empowered and know I will look back at this time as a blip in my life that changed me in ways, but ultimately reminded me who I am and what I have the power to do for myself. Through love all things are possible.