Titty Gate

Chemo Part 2.

Friday I had my first of 12 taxol infusions. These will be weekly infusions. I was there for 5 hours even though these are supposed to be shorter infusions. The front desk still leaves something to be desired, particularly as your first point of contact for your cancer treatment. I really shouldn’t complain about this at all, I for the most part felt perfectly fine. I was tired but I had no nausea. There have been some body aches which I was told I would have but overall the first infusion went fine.

I did reach a point of feeling tired of all of this which is why it’s taken me so many days to post this. And it’s not the chemo, it’s the production at the front desk every time… it’s that I still don’t have my Oncotype results back and that’s because my doctor didn’t order them immediately after surgery so now the insurance doesn’t want to pay for it… everything is a production…I also realized that being sick is kind of like when a loved one passes away. Everyone is right there when it happens and then slowly everyone goes back to their lives and you’re still in it. So I felt very alone this weekend and took it out on my mother who is the main person who has been there for me despite her reluctance to wake up early in the morning to feed me.

This has just been a bit trying of a week for me emotionally. I do not need therapist/support group suggestions in the comments but thank you. I made a commitment to share the good and bad of this with you all so this has just been a week. I’ll be fine. I always am. 💗